"The people who say they are busy are the people who don't know how to manage the time" ya , very true. I was not saying "I am busy" but I never managed the time properly. So obviously "The people who don't say they are busy are not necessarily the people who know how to organize time properly." haha .. a poor pj I know ;)

Next one month will be crucial in my life. I have absolutely no idea how will I manage to finish all the things I have started. Need to complete project, prepare for seminar, magazine kannda section work responsibility ( this time thinking of putting the photos too ) , translating articles for Vayam, movie shoot whenever director ;) shreyamsa …haha .. says.

In fact , I knew that I had some responsibilities which are not done yet. So there is no point in saying yes to VAYAM work. But the objective of the Vayam & Divya Deepa trust is so good that it sooner became my first priority. They basically work for the enhancement of life of underpriviledged children. Vayam is main organizer of “Mysooru unplugged” which is a concert comprises of various famous artists. Basically my work is to translate the brochure , proposal , press releases etc etc to kannada. I must say my junior Harsha has helped me a lot in the first assignment I got & I am sure we will manage the work together.

Guess , it’s the time to start something rather than simply postponing the things as I have done. Time has come again to keep my cell in silent mode ;) after a long long time. Yup, I have to admit one thing that I can’t do two or more things together. If I am orkutting , then believe me I am not doing anything other than that. Nowadays I Jus visit orkut five mins a day infact to wish my friends on their birthday. I love wishing friends on their birthday & got some good friends too by that to be frank.

Thought of writing about my views about relationship, commitment and all , and ended up writing this .. I am still sleepy I guess ;)

Logging off ,

With love ,

Kruthi …

Ya .. I am Changing again ..

When I remember the days of my high school & start comparing those golden days with my life now, I really become so confused. Was that really “ME”?????

The days when I used to attend more competitions than the classes , the days when I never knew what is failure, the days when I had the huge huge respect from the people even who are unknown to me, the days when I composed the song & sang in every class as campaign of S.P.L election for my best friend, the days where almost every lecturer in the college used to consider me as the best student , the day I became representative of more than 50,000 interacters of 8 districts, the day when I made a revolutionary speech saying I would like to become the prime minister & won state level first place for that, the day when I gave a speech in Rotary conference & congratulated by lot of dignitaries are really unforgettable.

What made me change like this? I really don’t know. I had the dare to speak in front of more than three thousand people. But I don’t know what made me so silent where I did not express my feelings properly even once in Mysore. I became kind of "chupa-rustam" here I guess. Probably my decision to quit from all the extra-curricular activities killed the person in me, killed the strength in me. I became really unable to present my views properly in fact. Was getting little irritated for the simple stuffs which were of no importance to me once upon a time, I did not express anytime when I felt bad. But still considered myself to be very important. That’s the big mistake I have done after coming to mysore I guess. I won’t say I became totally ”useless” after coming here. I got so called good percentage, was in some good activities, was in local-boys for a while, was doing some ed-board work. Ya , that’s true but, that’s nothing if I look back at the life I had once.

Guess , It’s the time for me to change again. I know it’s very difficult for me to become exactly like I was once. Things have changed a lot & I have changed a lot too. But I am trying for sure. Now expressing myself without any fear. Telling my views without any hesitations. Day before I had a chat with my friend, I told almost every thing when I felt bad & came to know how I was lacking in expressions. I considered her very important for sure , but realized from her that I never made her realize how she was important to me. Learned a lot of things from that conversation to be frank. Yesterday I realized that , I am still good in presenting my thoughts even though I am less knowledgeable. Yesterday Dr. Manjunath came & gave a speech on Bhagath Sing. We had 2 hours informal discussion with him after the talk where I expressed my views very well. I am happy with how I behaved after a long long time..

I know it’s going to take some time. But still I can make it. I am now very confident about it too. Hope by the time I complete the course, I will regain some part of “ME” which I lost after coming to Mysore.

With love ,

Kruthi..